Saturday Night Fever

Heng ar!!!No one yet tell me that my photos has make them vomited their meals out.heez.. ;-p

Saturday, i was happy,ANGRY and sad..Wa~~So complicated!!

Happy is that day was celebrating my Dajie's birthday.We were having chilli crabs, soup, vegetables and pork ribs (Thats all i can remember).And after we finished our dinner,my sis n brother were chatting about the past and our future. But happy moments never last long.

ANGRY - When we reached home, Ah Long went back to Redhill himself as i promised my mom that i will be staying overnight. When he reached home,i received a sms in chinese from him which make me v fed up with him. The sms said: -
' I already v v v tired le.I have done my best to save the marriage.I stayed till this late is because i wants a complete family.If not, I have already leave earlier.What u want me to do?Let me know what u have intend to do at least i have some idea.'
What does he mean of this? I told him if he feel that he is forcing himeself to do,don do it because no point doing as he is not willing and sincerely.What does he treat my family as?If now we are not in this state,does it means that he will not stay or come over for dinner?If he does not want to have a complete family,does it means that we are nothing to him?Why got to force himself to do what he don like or feel miserable or frustrated? If he think doing these little things is done his best,then no one in this world are doing their best.What is in his mind?I really wonder..What is the define of has done his best?Then what about me?I tried so hard to maintain peaceful in the hse.Keep quiet even i feel angry and or unhappy.Tried to do whatever i can.Since after the incident, I really mentally and physically tired.Really drain myself up.But i'm still hanging on inorder to so called let my kids have a full family and he so called complete family.But still I let him said I'm selfish.Is it worth doing all these anot?Not him working hard only,Me too..The saying always right,Appearance can change,but personalilty will never change.

Sad is I quarrelled with my mom on the same night. Was hurt by what she said,n really hurt..Like I am a burden to her.I don wish to drag my family in n let them have them feel that i putting a burden on their shoulder.Haiz..Cry for few hours and 2nd day my eyes were as swelled as a goldfish..