Problems..Problems..Problems..

These few days i was very very tired.I don't know what has happened to me.Struggling to wake up, fetch kids to school, go work come home etc...Like going to fall sick.Whole body aching and my face look terribly tired. Saturday got to bring them to KKH for DNA test.Not enough money for all my things plus got to standby money for the DNA test.Yesterday HDB office called up to check on the rental.Now has to borrow money here and there.Zhouhui hospitalise i spend quite alot on cab fare,give my mom n dad little bit money for their help like travelling from hougang to KKH or redhill,makan money etc...All these really drain my pocket out..What i feel most sianz thing is the money he gave,he can actually took back half and ask me why i never go pay the rental.Explained to him but like we cant communicate.I have to repeat 3 times then he hear wat i say..That really make me pek cek..Fold the clothes and put it there to wait for me to keep it.Even say until like he done a lot of things.I just told him,if he feel so miserable to help out,then don do.Don't come and nag at me.I very fan on the money issue,don have extra strenght to quarrel with him le.Just let me off..Can't take it anymore.I already used to have my own life,planning my own schedule.I do not allow anyone to spoilt my living now.Too many thing in my mind le.I just want to take good care and provide good life for my kids only.Not anything else.

He don't help me,i don't mind. Just don't give me more fan nao and pressure. Lots of things in my mind but i don't know how to say out.That is one part.Another one that hit me most is Zhoule issue. He told me that it is sure i pass it to him.Coz i always complaint I giddy, low blood pressure like that. What does he means by all these? Never encourage me but pulling me down.When i told him that Zhoule has Thalassaemia,he grumble.Said: at first got astma,then always fever, sick,now got this.In future still got wat...And he hang up the call after saying that.I never expect him to react like this.He is Zhoule's father.How can he say like this?I don't need him to do anything,just encourage me,standby me thru it but he cant do it.I really don't know now. IS THIS A TEST FOR US? If it is, I hope it can stop now and put it on me than my kid.