Decision

I have a chat with him yesterday night after the 'great' thing in the morning. He told me he means nothing.Is all angry words.I told him thanks for 'slapping' me and then tell me that the slap is nothing but he cant control himself.

I really wonder,who m i to him?!A wife or anger bin which he angry can anytime scold and 'hit'.Happy, treat me very good.In bad mood,use bad words,harsh words to scold/say me.What!!!I'm not the old Cindy that i allows him to do these to me.Actually now I feel v relieved.He has waken me up and not at least I know there are things I have to put down even I bu she de.

I believed they will understand me in future. I will go to get a lawyer to end this problem and I'm serious this time. Can u image that now even the kids cant let me stay at that house, how big is this issue? Maybe some of you will say I stubborn, unreasonable,selfish etc..But you all will not understand how i feel when he actually told me i can go home now and pack my thing to leave the house WITHOUT the children some more!!!I can leave him,but why I chose to stay is all because of my kids.They need a whole family, n I'm trying v hard to provide them one.

Can you all understand how my heart ache when yesterday Yanshan told me she wants daddy n mummy to be together? It is like the knife is slowly percing into my heart,letting it slowly bleed to death. The kids means nothing and what they said is from the bottom of their heart.I understand.I want to let go my dignity to stay at that 'home' and give them the father and mother love. but It has come to the end..

May God blessed me for what i have decided.SHOW TIME!!!
It is time for me to do what i have to do or should do long ago..