Meet up with his dad

Using my free time today to write this blog. I think my life really suai as i have actually encounter 2 man that have the same thinking.No wonder is father and son..I don know i should laugh or cry.On the last blog i wrote about He wanted to commit suicide and drag the kids into our matter. Today will be his father. On Thursday night, i arranged a meet up with his father, his brother and my dad to have a talk about our. His brother could not make it as he book out from camp at a very late time. Actually I wanted to talk to his dad while the kids having dinner so it will not drag the time too late for them to go home rest but there is a bu su zhi ke that joined us that night - Him. So i did not find a chance to talk to them as I feel uneasy talking to them in front of him.

After dinner,I told them i need to go to interchange to deposit some cash to return to my friend.So that create a chance for us to have a talk about that matter. Why i choose to let his family member know about this is because they have the right to know what is going on now and show him concern, but it is a very unpleasant meet up with his dad.

After i told his dad that he thinking of commit suicide trying to surprise me, scare the kids by saying jumping down from the building and using the kids to tie me down, he told me that actually is my fault for spoiling him by giving in too much to him in the past 7 years that now he has become taking things for granted. He asked me do I remember that he has told me before i should not give in to him if it is not my fault.But i can tell you all that he did not tell me that before. All he told me is to give in to him as i should know his character. He is like that one.Don quarrel with him.Give in, give in,give in...And now the finger pointing back to me,said i spoilt him.I really give up talking to him.I just kept quiet and walked to interchange and back to home.Kept telling me to think of the kids,give him another chance,use the kids' welfare to ask me stay..I felt that what is the use and the point to talk to his dad.No point~!~!

I don't know who can i talk to now.Even trying to let his dad know,he can tell me that it is my fault that i spoilt him.I really...............no words can describe my feeling that night. I was very down from that night till now.So tired that i wish to sleep and not wake up anymore.This is so torturing..But my mentally told me i cant coz i still have my 3 bao bei s..So I have to go on my life with the 3 bao bei s.