Surprise gift by Lifen,Photos of the bao beis..

These are the latest photos of the 3 bao beis..Grow up alot rite??Heez...

Yesterday I went to meet up with Lifen and Laykwan to have a short gathering. Am surprised that Lifen actually went to bought a small cake to help me celebrate my b'day.really sweet of her. I did not expected that this year b'day i will have a cake, coz the kids are still young and my family side they normally will have dinner without cake.This really a great and surprise gift that my this 12 years friend gave me.Wanna share with them but the cake really a small cake that enough for me to eat only..Hahaha..Wanna them to join me to the fatty bong bong club but....hahah..

After the meet up with Lifen, I went to do facial and body massage with Laykwan. The atmosphere and the service there really bagus..*thump up*Heez.... Have signed up a package with them,so has 15 sessions to pamper myself in this year. Heez... :P This is the present i gave to myself.

B'day....

Today is my b'day.Waiting for my presents but seem that it had been forgotten by people.My told it my b'day today and they wishes me.Touched...Two of my girlfrens sms and called me to wishes me.Thxs girls...Sad thing is my best buddy actually forgotten my b'day.SO angry.. :(
Haha...Just joking..

Anyway, Happy Birthday to me...My wish is that I can settle my current problem asap.

B'day celebration & Love turn to HATE!

On Saturday, 19th January 2008, my friends celebrated my birthday for me in advance. And my mom agreed to help me look after the kids in order for me to enjoy myself. After work, i met up with them. We went to Eminent Plaza there to have our dinner and after that, we went to KTV.Were drank that night..Haha.. Around 2am, one of my friends send us back and another girlfriend of mine were drank too. So I asked her to stay over night with me. My friend sent us up to my house and coz of worry about the 2 drank women (;P), he stayed over night to looked after us.So paisei.. Had a great night but....

On Sunday, 20th January 2008, Ah Long came home in the morning to get his stuff. He saw my friends and they even greeted him. Nothing happened while he at home,but when we reached my void deck, he stopped my guy Friend and wanna him to take out the IC to copy down his particulars.My friend don want and he called the police to settle this issue. He think that Singapore police very free. Got interest to interfere this matter. Stupid.. He wanna make thing big, I will do so. Talk to him nicely, telling him that before he moved we had an agreement,why got to make things worse. He said where is the agreement and he never signed any thing so whatever we said is not valid. Want to use this kind of method, fine..I shall use law to talk to him in future and whatever He wanna do or wat, I will ask him to sign. He wants black and white mah..I can do things to the extreme too..Never look down on a woman, especially a woman who get hurt and is a mother. She will do anything to protect herself and her children. He has slowly build up the hatred inside me towards him. That is the least thing that I want in my life.

HIM HIM HIM!!!!

Hi! This morning should be a great day for me but He spoilt my day again. Sianz... He called me early in the morning asking where is his pair of lion dance shoe.I told him I do not know where is the shoe n he start accusing me for throwing his thing without asking him. I told him I did not throw but he ignored me and start to use the bad words to scold me. Right after he finished scolding me, he hang up my call. Argh~!~!~! So angry leh... I called him and I told him again that I did not throw the shoe away. Why cant he talk peacefully? Why he has to assume and accuse me for throwing away the shoe? Argh!!!!! :-@ He just answered me that 'You didn't throw, didn't throw lor' and hang up my call again..Damm pissed.. I sms him that he don have to find anything from my place,just take it that I throw away. And he don have to ask me about that pair of shoe anymore coz I have asked my mom if she manage to find the shoe at the shoe rack,just throw it away. Since he want to accuse me, I might as well do it. Very pissed off that the things I did not do, he insist that I do..Then fine...I will do it. At least like that I get scolding I will not feel that bu gan xin..

Last few days were so peaceful and things getting quite well for me.And this idiotic man got to spoilt everything again. He bad mood, he stress or whatever it is, that is his own bloody f...ing business. Don't have to take it out on me. He said starting from this month he will start giving the maintenance money to me, but today is already what date!?!? He wants to act gong, I will not let him to do that..When together he makes my life that miserable. Now we seperated, he again wants to make my life miserable?? HA!!! I will not allow him to spoilt it again..From all these things, I really very very glad that I have decided to leave him..This will be my best decision I make in my life. I have prepared myself to fight this battle against him. I shall let him see how well and good my life is without him..That the goal for YEAR 2008.

Goals??Wishes??

Latest photo of them..Taken on 24/12/2007 (Yanshan b'day)

Year 2008....What are my wishes? In the past, I will always think what my goals and wishes for a new year.This year is different.Lack of the feeling for all these goals and wishes..Maybe too tired le ba.Year 2007 is not a very good year for me.Mentally and physically tired.

My only goal now is to bring up the children, give all my best to them. Zhouhui is doing quite well either in his Primary 1 or the life he is in now. His ex-tuition teacher (for 4 lessons only.haha..) feedback to Martha (my social worker) that he likes to learn new things and study. Below is the attachment that Martha email to me:-
Just have a favour to ask of you. See if you can get additional tuition help for both Andrean and Zhou Hui. They are good kids, willing to learn when well motivated. On my last day with them, I was surprised that both of them had refused to go home though their family members were there to pick them up. Instead, they were both happily copying and writing words that I had either left on the white board or they were interested to write about. I see that they have the interest to learn and this must continue to be nurtured. Especially Zhou Hui, he is hardworking and willing and actually, I think he is quite self motivated to perform well. As for Andrean, he needs someone to guide him but given the correct circumstances,he can manage quite well.

After reading it, I feel so proud of him. Even till now when i tell people about it,they all realise my face expression is different..Heez...

Yanshan feels better now about the divorce thingy. Glad that she's feeling better coz she has affected by this incident alot. Still can remember she hugged me in one Sunday morning and cried.It still breaks my heart when i think of.

The most least affected is Zhoule.Hahaha...He still din notice that his father has moved out even he heard him n the brother mentioned before. Maybe is because he is still young, still don understand what has happened. Now I am trying to let him know bit by bit.trying not to let hurt him or wat.

I will not what the children are thinking.So now whatver I'm going to do or tell them, I have to be very careful. We are getting closer everyday, every hours, every minutes we spend together and I treasure it alot. Many thanks to my family members and friends. They give me alots of support these few months.Also my current company, the bosses help me alot by giving support and let me take leave or time off if i needed to.Many many thanks..

HIM AGAIN~!~!

Yesterday (3/1/08) I had a quarrel with Him. I don noe why he suddenly pek cek and scold me. He even said want to take the children away from me and return the Redhill unit to HDB. Here goes the story:-

Part one: I have packed some stuff (decorative things) that he put on last year new year decoration. I gave him a call and asked him whether he still want it. He started to ask me lots of question like why i keep asking what things he want and don want,throwing aways things in the house etc..Asked is it that I want to rent out the house.I told him yes, and now still arranging with my friend. He then told me i better not renting the house out, don put him in trouble..I am angry but don wish to quarrel.So i just said not confirm but even if i renting it out, i will not get him into trouble. I told him I have to find ways to get some extra income to pay off the rental and PUB bills. N now he not staying here, so what i gg to do with the house, he has no rite to interfere coz he choose to leave the house without any notice.

Part two: I was tired as working part time at my friend's bookshop for 2 days. He told me he wanna to come over to pass something to Zhouhui, so i agreed but I've told him I very tired and I will let the kids to sleep early. When he reached, I let him have some personal time with the kids so I went to do my housework and went to bath. After bathing, I really can't take it so I asked him when he will be leaving. He looked at me angrily and shouted at me after a while.Said if i not happy that he come over to visit the kids, asked me to let him have either one or 2 of them and return this unit to HDB. I dame piss off.I scolded him, said he agreed i take all 3 kids and he will leave this house to us for the convinence of bring the kids to school. And he moved out without any notice, and at that time Zhouhui's schooling things haven even settle and he just moved out. Now I have settled most of the things, he wants to take back the children.What the heck~!~!

Now we slowly adapted the life without him, why he has to disturb it again? Why he always wants to make me worry and lives in fear again? I really don't understand. Very tired of all these.

At night he smsed me.
1st SMS:
Frankly speaking i have lot of things to say to you, see when you free. I thinkwe have to really sit down for both to of u to talk calming or to solve things out......I have been thinking a lot a lot really a lot of things so see when you free, is good to be asap.For the time being anyone find me or look for me just say u don noe where i stay or say i go Malaysia working. *end*
2nd SMS:
Then you think i feel very good oso ma i everyday after work go back inside the small room gone really crazy. Listen to song or sit there thinking not dare to sms u until now Zhouhui already in school for 2 days i have even more lots of thinking n feeling. Dat's why i bravely pick up the phone to sms you so late. If you really don want to talk anymore i wouldn't force you.You think I wanted so much to move out....Dis way oso good for both to calm n think wat really loss out.u should noe paper can never cover fire *end*
3rd SMS:
纸是包不住火，打死不理情兄弟，夫妻床头吵架床尾和，so you think about it.

I really do not know what he really wants..Haiz.. I am not going to give another chance. What he treat me and this family as? Happy happy move out, got woman.Now feel lonely wants to come back. What his motive of coming back to us? Me really wonder...