Hi everyone, long time did not update my blog..Life getting fine for me.We seperated for about 2 months and it seem that the children and i are getting used without him.
I realised my temper getting worse. Whenever i scold them, i will scream at them and everyone stay near my blk will start to come out and look with the crazy woman screaming.Haha..
Like yesterday, i was so angry that i nearly cane the 2 elder ones.They ran downstair by themselves without letting me know. Really scared me..When i came out from the kitchen after making hot the pasta sauce, i did see any of them and also cannot hear their voice at the corridor.So i ran all the way downstair by staircase to look for them, calling their names and no responds from them..So worry..My heart was like jumping out from my mouth. I start to pray that nothing will happen to them as outside my blk is the carpark and most of the cars that come into that carpark normally don use their eyes to check whether people are crossing or wat. So scared that they will dashed out to the carpark to pick up their things. When i reached the 1st floor, i looked around and can't see them. So i called up to Yimei to check with her whether the kids are back to home.Luckily she told me they are back and really relieved to hear that they are safe but then, my anger coming up when i took lift up to 10th floor.Keep telling myself to cool down but just so angry..How can they just run downstair by themselves and this time is without asking my permission?!
When i saw them, they start crying (i haven even open my mouth). That made me even more angry with them. I scolded them and i told them since they like to run downstair by themselves or go out without my permission, don stay with me. I don allowed them to come in.After i stepped in the house, I closed my gate and locked it. They cried and said Yanshan start apologising to me. I told them to keep queit because it is their fault this time and made me really angry.I told them since they all don want to listening wat i said or teaches them, then forget it..don call me mummy or tell me they want me. After i cooled down and my friend explained that it was her son brought them down, I asked them whether do they know what wrongs they done to make me so angry and worry? Yanshan apologised to me again and told me that she should not followed the brother to go down by themselves. I allowed her into the house, but that Zhouhui very stubborn.He don want to admit that it is his fault to bring the sister downstair by themselves. So i let him alone stayed out for half an hour.
I can see that he 不甘愿that I scolded him because his reason for going down is to pick back his ball. He do not think it is wrong for him to go down without asking me or do not know the danger for him to go down alone. after he auto told me he is sorry for making me angry, i let him in and explained to him.it is not wrong to pick his ball back but it is wrong to go down by himself and without telling me.also it is dangerous if he runs out to the carpark to pick his ball and a car knock him down. I want to let him know is that not that i like to scold him but I'm treasuring him alot and I do not want to lose him. he hugged me and apologised again. He promised me that he will not do it again, and now i waiting to see if he gonna keep his promise to me. :D
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