Do you know the legend of the Cherokee Indian youth's rite of Passage? His father takes him into the forest, blindfolds him and leaves him alone. He is required to sit on a stump the whole night and not remove the blindfold until the rays of the morning sun shine through it. He cannot cry out for help to anyone. Once he survives the night, he is a MAN.
He cannot tell the other boys of this experience, because each lad must come into manhood on his own. The boy is naturally terrified. He can hear all kinds of noises. Wild beasts must surely be all around him. Maybe even some human might do him harm. The wind blew the grass and earth, and shook his stump, but he sat stoically, never removing the blindfold. It would be the only way he could become a man!
Finally, after a horrific night the sun appeared and he removed his blindfold. It was then that he discovered his father sitting on the stump next to him. He had been at watch the entire night, protecting his son from harm. We, too, are never alone. Even when we don't know it, God is watching over us, sitting on the stump beside us. When trouble comes, all we have to do is reach out to Him.
This is one of my friend emailed to me yesterday. I have actually lose my faith in God, not only in my own religious. I do not want to put my fate or hope on them as i feel that I can change my own fate and the hope I hoped, I have to work hard for myself then it can come true.That has nothing to do with the God. After reading this and reflected myself, I realised that eventho it is true that I have the ability to change, but God is still with me whenever I needed the advice. I decided to re-built my faith on God but now I don noe where should I go. I fear of losing faith again. Haiz..How to built back the trust i used to have in God and people? *Sigh*
Friday, March 28, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
Stupid of me.. *Angry*
Last week Ah Ping came to Singapore for renewing VISA for Alex boy boy, also I introduce my insurance agent to her as she like to get a saving policy. After the meet up, we (Ah Ping, Gary, me, Alex boy boy, Jerome & Jermine) went to have supper. We were chatting about some issue regards my new friends I know from internet and from friends. Don know why we talk about that idiot (Ah Long). Gary know about what that idiot scolded Ah Ping that time before my birthday in Year 2007 and what he said about Ah Ping personality. So Ah Ping told us that actually she and her husband, Jack, became like this is partically coz of Ah Long. She said Ah Long at that time kept calling her and asked her over for dinner.Asked her what she doing, have she taken her meal yet.When he called Jack to check whether he would like to play mahjong, he also asked him what is Ah Ping doing,have to taken her meal, this and that..WHAT THE HECK!!!!! My hatred towards him increased. I as a wife to him at that time, he never even asked me am I feeling better even I'm sicked, he went to ask other ppl's wife for f***!!!! I angry with myself for being so stupid to believe him whole heartedly that he will never betray my trust on him.
Then yesterday I went to find a friend of mine at Terminal 3. I told Mandy about this. She gave me another reason to prove that I being stupid to trust that idoit again.But this time involve with another person, A. His so-called god sister. She told me that A told her batch of friends ( Her husband know them) that she had an affair with that idiot before and has being on bed too..*disappointed* *sad* *angry* But there are a lots if ?s in this. I can't figure our why she go and tell them. And also why she mentioned his name out. But they don noe who is Ah Long and me at that time, so they wouldn't any how spread rumours. Aiyah...Lots of questions coming to my mind.So pek cek..Decided to call up A to ask her and just smsed her to ask her to call me.
Me really so stupid..Always let ppl betray my trust on them, now even my own husband betrayed me. Like he always says 人在做天在看. I will see how the heaven going to 'take care' of him. :)
Then yesterday I went to find a friend of mine at Terminal 3. I told Mandy about this. She gave me another reason to prove that I being stupid to trust that idoit again.But this time involve with another person, A. His so-called god sister. She told me that A told her batch of friends ( Her husband know them) that she had an affair with that idiot before and has being on bed too..*disappointed* *sad* *angry* But there are a lots if ?s in this. I can't figure our why she go and tell them. And also why she mentioned his name out. But they don noe who is Ah Long and me at that time, so they wouldn't any how spread rumours. Aiyah...Lots of questions coming to my mind.So pek cek..Decided to call up A to ask her and just smsed her to ask her to call me.
Me really so stupid..Always let ppl betray my trust on them, now even my own husband betrayed me. Like he always says 人在做天在看. I will see how the heaven going to 'take care' of him. :)
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Learning
Like to share this with you all.
Learning is older than he looks, because he is young at heart. He loves children and can devote hours to be with them, althought they often forget about their time together when they grow up. This saddens him somewhat, although he never fails to watch them from behind the scenes in case they need help. Then he steps in and intervenes, often without anyone's knowledge that he is doing so.
Learning used to work full-time in a school, where he particularly enjoyed small-group teaching, lab work and extra-curricular activities. He would often spend hours after class with students, talking about things outside syllabus, such as the meaning of life, the value of relationships, and how to comfort the dying. He's acquired quite a reputation - companies now regularly hire him as a consultant, and grown men are turning to him for advice. He's quite pleased about his new work, and it keeps him busy.
An incorrigible traveller, Learning enjoys solitude, but is not addicted to it. I've bumped into him on vacation many times, travelling alone. When he goes abroad, he brings aloneg very little, although he's comfortably well-endowed. Patient, resourceful and insatiably curious, he trusts the journey to provide whatever he needs.
you don't need to have known Learning for very long to understand that he's a perpetual optimist. Those who know his father, Experience, say that Learning takes after him. What they often overlook is that Reflection was the mother of Learning, and that his favourite teacher is joy.
Learning is older than he looks, because he is young at heart. He loves children and can devote hours to be with them, althought they often forget about their time together when they grow up. This saddens him somewhat, although he never fails to watch them from behind the scenes in case they need help. Then he steps in and intervenes, often without anyone's knowledge that he is doing so.
Learning used to work full-time in a school, where he particularly enjoyed small-group teaching, lab work and extra-curricular activities. He would often spend hours after class with students, talking about things outside syllabus, such as the meaning of life, the value of relationships, and how to comfort the dying. He's acquired quite a reputation - companies now regularly hire him as a consultant, and grown men are turning to him for advice. He's quite pleased about his new work, and it keeps him busy.
An incorrigible traveller, Learning enjoys solitude, but is not addicted to it. I've bumped into him on vacation many times, travelling alone. When he goes abroad, he brings aloneg very little, although he's comfortably well-endowed. Patient, resourceful and insatiably curious, he trusts the journey to provide whatever he needs.
you don't need to have known Learning for very long to understand that he's a perpetual optimist. Those who know his father, Experience, say that Learning takes after him. What they often overlook is that Reflection was the mother of Learning, and that his favourite teacher is joy.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Touched by little things my angels have done. Love u dears..
Yesterday (12/03/08) I kena food poisoning and were on MC. Nearly can't see doctor that day.Heez...I reached the clinic around 11.40am and after registration, I slept on the sofa at the corner.The doctor called my name but I din heard him calling my name so I waited till the doctor left the clinic then I sensed something wrong. So I quickly went to the counter and checked with them. As I was feeling really lousy, I was a bit harsh to the lady at the counter.But I really wondered,is it their habit of letting ppl to sleep inside the clinic and not knowing why the person is sleeping there..They should at least check with me. Sign...
Today (13/03/08) come back to work like whole person not right like dat.Don noe wat is wrong with me.Head very painful, my right eye swollen and whole body like floating about.But what to do..Got only one day MC. for Wednesday.So no choice..Not feeling good oso must work.But something really touches me...
Yesterday night, my mom suddenly brought Zhouhui and Zhoule back to Lengkok Bahru.I tok wat happened as our plan is to let them stay till today morning.I was abit pek cek when my mom suddenly brought them back as I wanna to rest for that nite as I did not sleep well for the whole Tuesday nite to Wednesday morning. But it touches me when I know the real reason behind this : ...
My mom told me actually is Zhouhui wanna back home coz he worried about me.He told my mom he wanna look after me and see me so ask my mom to bring them back. *so touching*
Yesterday he called me when he reached my mom's place after bring Zhoule to see doctor.He asked me how m I, worried I will faint then he will not be able to see me le. *Sweet* I nearly cried when heard him saying these. Feel so touched and sweet deep inside my heart.
Yanshan is with me as she still need to go to school. She very sweet oso. When I'm sicked, she kept asking how m I and hug me sleep for that whole nite. *touched*
Zhoule told me 生病就去看医生啦！！The expression he had on his face were so cute. And he start to behave like his brother, remind me to take medicine and pour water to me. So cute. *sweet*
All these little things I got from them tells me that all my efforts for them are worth while.I can live without Ah Long or man, but definately I cant live without my kids (my angels which GOD gave them to me) Thank for everything. Mummy always loves u, my dearest sweethearts angels. =D
Today (13/03/08) come back to work like whole person not right like dat.Don noe wat is wrong with me.Head very painful, my right eye swollen and whole body like floating about.But what to do..Got only one day MC. for Wednesday.So no choice..Not feeling good oso must work.But something really touches me...
Yesterday night, my mom suddenly brought Zhouhui and Zhoule back to Lengkok Bahru.I tok wat happened as our plan is to let them stay till today morning.I was abit pek cek when my mom suddenly brought them back as I wanna to rest for that nite as I did not sleep well for the whole Tuesday nite to Wednesday morning. But it touches me when I know the real reason behind this : ...
My mom told me actually is Zhouhui wanna back home coz he worried about me.He told my mom he wanna look after me and see me so ask my mom to bring them back. *so touching*
Yesterday he called me when he reached my mom's place after bring Zhoule to see doctor.He asked me how m I, worried I will faint then he will not be able to see me le. *Sweet* I nearly cried when heard him saying these. Feel so touched and sweet deep inside my heart.
Yanshan is with me as she still need to go to school. She very sweet oso. When I'm sicked, she kept asking how m I and hug me sleep for that whole nite. *touched*
Zhoule told me 生病就去看医生啦！！The expression he had on his face were so cute. And he start to behave like his brother, remind me to take medicine and pour water to me. So cute. *sweet*
All these little things I got from them tells me that all my efforts for them are worth while.I can live without Ah Long or man, but definately I cant live without my kids (my angels which GOD gave them to me) Thank for everything. Mummy always loves u, my dearest sweethearts angels. =D
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
New Image of Me
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I went to cut my hair on Saturday and have took some photos by my photographer Jerome Lim Zhouhui.Haha.. His skill of taking photos not bad wor~ Heez..
How is my new image? Some said nice,suit me.Some said not nice,I looked better with longer hair. How about you??Haha..
Updating of my life.... Life getting better.The kids used of the life without him.Yanshan started her course - THINKCAP. This course teaches her how to self control herself, listen to instruction, understand English better and one more is.....I cant remember.hahah...
ZhouLe grow up alot.He starting to understand what is happening around him like why Ah Long not around,Why I have to work part time which make me don have time to accompany them..One good new is I try not to work on Sunday..Last 2 weeks I did not work on Sunday,I brought Zhouhui to computer course then bring them out.I enjoyed the time being with them. And I realised that I actually miss this kind of time together with them.Have the urge to quit my job and look after them back..haha..But I know I cant.
Zhohui's teacher feedback to me yesterday that Zhouhui like never learn his spelling which I swear I did teach him and is words by words.Haiz..He know the spelling words but need time to remember how to spell it. Think need to give him additional tuition. He need to use one to one teaching then he can remember what he learn. But I believe he can do it coz he is a smart boy rite everyone??Heez..
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