"Heart closed"

From Tuesday (20/5/2008) to today, feel so terrible. I don't know why this issue can affect me that much that I have closed me heart towards ppl. My office manager (which is my aunt) asked me to go to her room as she has something to talk to me. In my heart, I already know what she want to tell me. I just told Sheila last week that I had a feeling the management gonna talk to me about my 'work performance'. True enough..Tuesday my office manager asked me to her room.

She started the conversation with my work performance has gone down.I told her I know.It is easy for ppl to say do not think of personal problem while working or not to bring work back home.But whether can do that anot,is not as easy as they use mouth to say. I told her I have no choice but to think.If I don think, the problem will be there forever. I not alone. I still have 3 young children with me. I have to think of their welfare. Then she said why I go around and tell ppl about my personal thing. *Blur* I disrespect to my Boss' son. *Blur* again. Told me that actually they want to tell me off but she tahan them back.and she din realise that she accidentally said out that they pity me as my situation now and not coz of my work performance they are satisfy of. (When a person said something not knowingly, that things he/she said is from the bottom of his/her heart)*My heart felt pain and it is very very painful.* She woke me up. I have be 'sleeping' all this while believing that ppl help me, care about me is from their heart but.... Hiaz..*Sad*

I DON'T need ppl to pity me.I DON'T need their sympathy.All I need is a listening ears and a lending shoulder but some ppl tend to like to rub salt on recovering wounds. I told myself I will prove to them. May GOD bless me and give me strength to go on.

Jerome's Birthday

3rd May 2008 is Jerome's 7 years old birthday. I invited his classmates and some of my mother club mothers to celebrate for him. Very coincidence that Yimei's daughter Desiree is a May baby too. So we decided to do it together. The party ends around 11 pm and every kids were so tired.Haha.. Let them take this opportunity to enjoy themselves before their mid-year exam starts. I also invited Ah long and his family but Jerome was disappointed with Ah Long. He told me he very angry with Ah Long.What for he come when he never go in and talk to him.Only he going to leave then call him said he is leaving. Come also no point. When he telling me this, he was crying which breaks my heart. This party is meant to let him enjoy but in the end he is being sad coz of this father of his. I told him nevermind.. I love him and he just has to remember even the whole world don love him, I will be there for him and love him always. Slowly his eyes brighten up and can feel that he feel very much better.

NOW..let us enjoy the photos that Jerome took:-

The birthday boy and birthday day girl. (Jerome and Desiree)

His best friend since K1 (Desiree's brother-Ryan)

Can you count how many children are there?

Below were took using Shirleen's new Motorola Hp.:)

A fatter version of me compare to this picture that we took at Bugis.


Her hp do not have flash light that why all the photos were like very dark..But still can see the face.Haha..
That all for today..Thanks for viewing.. ;P