Updates on myself

Hi all,
Wanted to update my blog but coz of my new job I not being able to. :( Alot of things happened at my side here. happy, sad, stress etc..

Ah Long has re-married in December and going to have a baby soon this year.Was happy for him but oso worry for the baby and the wife. I really wish this time he can change his bad habits. Was being hurt by his father whom I treated him like my own father. Now then I know how he think of me all along. Sad. :( He always said he treat me like his own daughter even I have already divorced with Ah Long. Marriage is a happy thing that is being share by everyone but he instead of sharing, he asked everyone to hide the truth from me coz he worry I will go round gossiping. Am I that mean or bad? But wat's there to be gossiping abt. After all, we are already divorced. If he really treated me like his daughter, shouldn't he share this happy thing with me? I treated them with heart and sincerity but all I got is this kind of treatment. I asked myself whether am I that bad? or I did not treat them well? Why he wanna to treat me like this? I cried. Really crying out loud. I told myself I will not be the nice gal anymore towards him and Ah Long. But still I xin ruan when Ah Long told him he not able to give the maintenance to the kids. Start to think how the new born gg to survive. I find my kids lucky coz I still can work to bring them up. But that lady can't coz she's from Vietnam. Pray hard for her and the baby.

I hurt someone which I do not wish to hurt in my life. I felt terrible, but life got to go on. We still contact each other and I hope this friendship will not ended because I treasure him as much as I treasure my friends. God, please give me and him the strength to be friends forever.

I like a guy but somehow I could not be open infront of people. I like him and I have the feeling of being in the secondary life that time. So innocent and fun. Can say that I love him but I have to hide it inside my heart which I feel quite xin ku. I don noe where I stand and how should I go abt it. :( I know he got feeling for me but circumstances we both can't do anything but to hide everything in our heart. How long this gonna to last? Can someone come and tell me?