Dear Blog,
Yesterday quarrelled with him again. Is it my fault again? I really don understand. Firstly wee quarrelled because if Yimei. Then after that he just left the market straight after eating. What did i do wrong? Am i wrong in believing in this world there is still love even i fell so hard and painful from Ah Long.
He is a nice guy. He willing to accept my status & kids. Am he? or am I just to naive? Am he thinking whether he should back off from me? Where is he now? Will he go and find his ex-gf or his ex- Philippine gf? Am i jealous? Why am i keep thinking of the negative point now which normally I said I tursted him? Or actually deep in my heart I'm not? Why i don feel much pain as b4. Am i giving up on the hope of him loving me and the kids? What am i to him? Just a woman that he can fuck with? SHIT..... Why am I thinking of all these? I think i getting lesser hope of being loved again. My life is just have to be without someone to love me, dote me and sometimes give in to me. Am i asking too much?
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