Year 2010 life dairy

It been almost a year that i din post any blog. Life changes a lot after my marriage.

The last blog that i posted was on 25/01/2010. I was still happy that my friends are around me, truthful to me, take me as their sis or buddy, parents' relationship getting better, me and my elder sister are getting marry, waiting for a new family member to join us,but.....it had all changed. It affected me a lot. Make me don dare to trust people, always have to be cautions when talking to my friends now. Somehow rather that my life are v heavy with all these nonsense.

Feb '10: Realized that I pregnant with Baby Jaden. We had to bring forward of our wedding planning. We started to plan the wedding the soonest that we can. Friends around us helping us to prepare.

March '10: We had our 1st screening of the baby. We showed the the screening photo to Amutha and she told us that it was our bday present to her, coz that day was actually her bday (23/3/2010) :)

April '10: Everything was not ready yet and only left few weeks to prepare everything like the gowns, the dowry, buffet etc. Luckily got Amutha to help me. She brought me to buy gown as a gift. I have bought a gown for ROM and cheong sam for actual day. She brought me to Yishun to get accessories for my wedding, asked her 3rd sister to help me do manicure.Carry a baby inside my tummy and had to walk around is tedious for me.But was enjoying the shopping. 30/04/2010 was my ROM day. Morning Amutha brings me to do my hairstyle, Mandy come in the afternoon to do my makeups. And we ready for our ROM. Everyone was happy that day.After that, we had lunch at ABC market to thanks them for attending our ROM. At nite, waiting to comb my hair and prepared myself for my big day. ;)

May '10: This month is the month that changes my life. 01/05/2010 was my Chinese custom wedding. I woke up at 4am to let my sister's friend to help me to do my hair and makeup. She and her husband are very nice people. She do my makeup and hairstyle for free and she got her friend to help out that morning for my Jie Meis. Her husband helping us to take photos for free too. Really grateful that there are such nice people around. Around 8 plus, Alvin and his brothers arrived and gatecrash started with Amutha 1st. She make him to all the forfeits and drinks or eat all kinds of food that my elder sister had prepared for them at the gatecrash. heez.. was so funny when i saw the video that my jie mei take. after that, we went to Alvin's father place for tea ceremony.But when we reached there, i had a shock out of my life. His parents just reached the coffee shop for their breakfast and his brother's family was still sleeping. And the best part is they told us that we told them that the tea ceremony was in the afternoon. I looked at Alvin and just keep quiet. We went up the house to pray the ancestor and trying to have the tea ceremony even the relatives are not ard. His grandma is very sweet. She quickly wake up, slowly walk to the toilet to wash up her face and waiting for us to serve her the tea. All was stop by his brother saying that this can be done when having the wedding buffet at nite time. Alvin was praying at that time and surprisingly that his dad agreed with his brother idea. I keep controlling my tears from dropping and try not to make the situation worst. When we in the lift, my jie meis come and console me and asked me how i feel. I told them don ask anymore as i may not able to control my tears if they keep asking me. Alvin see it and he feel so upset that his family did this. I told him it ok, as long as he treat me good can le. After all i not marry to his family but is to him. We don want waste our time at his father's house so we decided to take some outdoor shots. We went to Changi end to take the shots and i love that place even thou it is very hot. After the shots, we make our way to Hougang for my side of tea ceremony. We at first was so happy till we went back to Lengkok Bahru to rest and my dad actually quarrelled with me bcoz of money. After resting at Lengkok Bahru, we went back to his father place for the buffet and tea ceremony. Again, unhappy things happened. having tea ceremony in the dark living room like we are ghost couple. =.= My brother-in-law's children shoes all 'sunning' in front of the buffet table. And worst thing of all, he actually tiao shen when we are having guests at his place for our wedding buffet dinner. Fine. that my fate ba. 2 marriages oso can't have a decent one. But I'm glad that he is there for me to cheer me up. Just few days after my wedding, he being asked t police station for investigation of loanshark thing. All thanks to a person, Angela. She was his godsister and my best friend. She accused she lend us her atm card for the loanshark thingy and best of all, she even mentioned my name when that has nothing to do with me. She noe the person thru Alvin. She willingly to lend to that person and trying to gain something from that, when things alrite and she gain something from it, she nv said is Alvin.But when thing goes wrong, she start to point finger to us. saying us not being responsible, cause her so many problem and the cheapest thing she do is to go ard and tell all our friend that we are not a good person, irresponsible, trying to push all blames to her. F... off. i feel like gg up to her place to give her 2 tight slaps. From that day she throw my trust and heart in the dustbin, she no longer my friend, but a stranger to me. Slowly, more and more friends starting to tell lies to me. Tell u, my heart was like being cutting slice by slice by them. I asked myself m i such a failure that those friends noe me longer than her actually believe in her and start casting me away by telling lies to me. But from there, i noe who really are my true friends. No matter i happy, sad, rich or poor they are there for me.

June '10: Nothing much happened. Alvin's case hold till they called him up to asked him to go back for investigation.waiting for Baby to arrive and confirm that baby is a girl :D so we started to buy baby things bit by bit.

July '10: We finally decide to call her Jaden Chua. The meaning of Jaden is Thankful which i am thankful that she comes into my life and i wan her to be thankful to people for those who help her in future. Never be a wan en fu e person in future.

Aug '10: Preparing for Baby Jaden to arrive. After 6 years, i have fear to give birth to another baby, but i think it too late to 'regret' it. Hahahah Tummy getting bigger but haha.. i still can carry my tummy to run after the bus. Kena scolding by lots of people said it is dangerous that i run after the bus with a big tummy that going due in few weeks time. Both of my legs become swollen as the due date nearer. Keep talking to Baby Jaden, telling her not to make Mummy painful. Must faster come out to the world and let Mummy see your beautiful face. *Sweet*

Sep' 10: Was suppose to work till end of Sept @ Touch Community Services, but Baby Jaden don allow me.Heez.. 27/09/2010 around 6am, I was waking the kids up for school and when i go to toilet, i saw blood. So i quickly wake Alvin up and told him Baby Jaden want to come to this world. He looked shock and blur. Then i quickly asked him called Sayang up to ask if she can come over my place to look after Lele. Glad she heard the phone, otherwise, i do not know what to do le.To bring the kids with me to hospital or..... Around 7.30am, we took cab to KKH, registered there and i stay in the small observation room for almost 2 hours before any doctor come and see me. around 10am, they pushed me to the big room and Baby Jaden arrived to this world. All the people said she come to this world very fast and i agreed. She really sayang me alot. Tell u something, i think having injection is more painful than giving birth. Hahaha..

Oct '10: Doing the confinement really going to take my life away. So boring and sticky. haha.. Just keep taking care of Baby Jaden in the night time really want my life. She keep waking up in the night and sleep in the day time. Faint...

Nov' 10 - Dec '10: Life goes on without people who keep wearing mask. I find that my life is quieter without all those so-called friends. But my heart still bleeding. Wondering where the truthfulness between friends. Trust? Sincerity? True care and concern between friends?? Can anyone tell me the answer?