Accept or Not Accept

On Monday afternoon, I went to my youngest brother-in-law's ROM.At there,My father-in-law gave me a gold necklace.I did not know that it has a meaning with this until i reach home and take it out to have a look.It has a chinese word - double 'XI'.Because of my current situation with him, I cannot accept this necklace from my father-in-law.I wanna to give him back but worry to disappointed him.But if i accept, I'm also accepting his hope too.(This is how i feel when i take the necklace to have a look) Not sleeping well for that nite. Accept or Not???Very big ? in my head.I dont want to force myself to accept it but dont wish to see the elder to disappointed.Very hard to zuo ren arh~~

At nite, I told him that i will pass the necklace to him as i cant accept it now.It was too stressful le.If I cant accept him back,I letting my father-in-law down.Even the ring my mom helped him to redeem,i oso did not accept it back.He were asking me why i not giving him another chance.I have already tried my best to improve the situation but I just cant.From not talking to him to now I start talking,from not eating with him,oso start eating with him,wat more he wants me to do.Too forceful from him le.

Now i have the fear of going home(Redhill).Sometimes really pek cek when i know that te day has ended and i have to go back.Sianz~Very sianz~Someone can please help me~~~~~ Breaking down le~~~