He today told the kids he has moved out from the house and the kids informed me. I trying to get use of living alone with 3 kids as so used of a man at home.Think this is a process that I have go thru. I am listening a song name, How do I live without you. While listening, I am scared that I cant get used of without him around, but since I made this decision.That no turning back my head. Tears dripping down my face. So sad that what I put in the effort for the 7 years gone to the drain. I keep telling myself no point crying now coz everything has reached a full stop. I got back the wedding bands.When i see it, I think of the ROM day when he put the ring on me.The photos that my uncle help us to take. I think I will not take the photos out for a period of time. I'm going to repaint the whole house and rearrange the furniture.Will get new mattresses and knock down the partition. Wanna to change everything so I can have a new start.
Those that read my blog offen might think that why I make this decision and now like I'm regretting. Just wanna to say that I'm just a woman.I also will scared and worry..Thing like happened so fast that I don have time to adjust myself.But I not regretting divorcing. I feel that it will be better for us to stay separately and cool ourselves down. What will happened in future no ones will know. Maybe during these time he realise that he actually don love me but just used to see me around or I still love him, or still hope to be with him,then if we cant be together again or together again at least our misunderstanding will be lots lesser. We become friends now is better for us, as I more positive listening to what he say and he can tell me everything like he talking to a friend. May GOD bless me forgetting the used to have him around asap.May GOD bless my kids getting healthier and healthier.May GOD bless everyone around me.
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