Photos taken on the Sentosa Trip

Here are some of the photo we took on 16 Sep 2007. The day we went to Sentosa.

These photos we took it while we were travelling on the MRT to HarbourFront.

Comparing these 2 photos.Which photo is cuter (kids) ?


Yanshan looks pretty after tying up her hair.Everybody agree with me?Heez..


I love the right hand side picture.Looks so natural. Muack~Muack~

These taken at the UNDERWATER WORLD....

This was our first stop while at the Underwater World. The last 2 photos of the checky boy - Zhoule (Joshua)

The more I care, the more I hurt

Finally....Today I have sent out the email to her le. While sending it, I feel very upset.Just coz of these disagreements we have to end our friendship and partnership in this way. Is it worth it anot? To me, the answer is NO. Why can't the misunderstandings clear face to face?Is this her so called trust and faith in us? NO also. Haiz...Really no mood n faith in doing any 'biz' now. :-(

My old feeling is BACK.When they want you to join, they will follow up with you,agree with you on whatever suggestions you gives. When they think you have no use or have more committed members, they will abandon you. To me, I'm not a failure.But to these kind of ppl,they ARE.And is terriblely failure.

Dinner with His family members

Yesterday i cooked dinner and asked his family members to join us for dinner. I have not cooked dinner for a very very long time .It took me 2 hours to finish cooking all the dishes.Wow~~! I first time took so long to finish cooking a dinner.Normally i took less that 1 hour to finsh the cooking.Hahaha...After cooking, I am so tired and sticky till i have no appetite.But stil have to eat abit.

One thing very funny is actually Zhouhui was eating my bowl of rice and amazingly he finished the whole bowl.Wow~~At night before Zhoule's bathing, I asked him how was the food and whether he likes to have this kind of food again.He told me he really likes it and ask me to cook for him today. The expression and the look he gave me is so warm-hearted.Really loves this kind of feeling. I haven had a chance to ask Yanshan and I hope she also like my cooking.Heez...

One thing I am glad is my 2nd brother-in-law sent a sms to me telling me he enjoyed the dinner and the food is delicious. But I know that the food is not nice, he only trying to make feel better for letting them to have such a not tasty food.Heez...But the sms touches my heart for recognize my effort in the cooking.Haha..

Shall pen off now.Take care...

RIDICULOUS~~~

This blog is for the person who changed my colourless life to a very colourful life.But now the colours have fade away. You deserted me.You forsake me. You demoralize me when I am ready back to actions. You make me lose faith and trust in you. You are being unfair. You assume everythings. You did not even to bother to clear up theso called 'offences' that i 'made' but your mouth kept saying you cares for me.All is bullshits.. I am DISAPOINTED, SAD, HURT, IRRITATE by what in your mind.ARGH~~~!!!This is damm so ......!!!!!!!!!

You keep saying that we are rebellious, jealous of the newcomers, not committed enuff,were not there when you need us most..What is your define of all these?

These are all my defines of the action you showed me : Rebellious because of not agreed with you.Jealous over the newcomers because you think we are fighting over the ranks,not having your attention etc.. Not committed enuff because you think we were heck caring, not there with you in your so called 'battles',Not calling you in the middle of the nite to follow up with you. Were not there with you when you need us most because you think we should do what you wants us to do but you never told us what you wants us to do, did not accompany you to fight your so called 'battles'..

Please use your brain to think and your heart to feel when you says all these to us. You down,everything we do is wrong,commited offences.You happy, anything we do you ok with it.You said you will not step in unnecessary but when we need you to step in,Where are you? Only in your own world blaming us,demoralise us,accusing us....When we tried to behave back like what we used to be,the words in your emails and SMSes pierce thru our hearts.If that is your purpose, CONGRATULATION to you.

Accept or Not Accept

On Monday afternoon, I went to my youngest brother-in-law's ROM.At there,My father-in-law gave me a gold necklace.I did not know that it has a meaning with this until i reach home and take it out to have a look.It has a chinese word - double 'XI'.Because of my current situation with him, I cannot accept this necklace from my father-in-law.I wanna to give him back but worry to disappointed him.But if i accept, I'm also accepting his hope too.(This is how i feel when i take the necklace to have a look) Not sleeping well for that nite. Accept or Not???Very big ? in my head.I dont want to force myself to accept it but dont wish to see the elder to disappointed.Very hard to zuo ren arh~~

At nite, I told him that i will pass the necklace to him as i cant accept it now.It was too stressful le.If I cant accept him back,I letting my father-in-law down.Even the ring my mom helped him to redeem,i oso did not accept it back.He were asking me why i not giving him another chance.I have already tried my best to improve the situation but I just cant.From not talking to him to now I start talking,from not eating with him,oso start eating with him,wat more he wants me to do.Too forceful from him le.

Now i have the fear of going home(Redhill).Sometimes really pek cek when i know that te day has ended and i have to go back.Sianz~Very sianz~Someone can please help me~~~~~ Breaking down le~~~

Outing with my mom and kids

On Sunday, i went to Sentosa, underwater World and Dolphin Lagoon, with my mom and kids.We really enjoyed ourselves.This is my first time to these both attractions.I am like sua gu,looking ard the place and telling my kids that this is so nice,that is so big etc...Hahaha..Like small child first time gg outing..Heez.. My kids oso the same as me.Running round the place,shouting saying that they saw the divers in the tanks-cleaning the tanks and feeding the fishes,sharks swimming abt their heads etc...Hahaha..Feel so great to see them enjoying themselves.

The food there were so expensive.2 plates of chicken rice,2 bowls of fish balls noodle and a cup of milo cost us abt $40.00 leh~Wah~~Heartpain when i saw my mom paid for the food.But we have no choice,because theids were all hungry le.Heez...First time I don have to keep asking them to eat more,eat faster or wat.They gobble down the food like they being stave for days..So poor thing,but they are very cute.Too bad i did not manage to film it down..Heez..Love the looks they had on their face no matter wat they doing..So cute lor~~~!

We took alot of photos but i have to wait for my sis to download to the PC and transfer/email to me.When she has download,i then upload some of the photos i like.Heez.Thank you, Mom.For giving me and my kids a tiring but wonderful day

Cheers...

Better or Bad?

Hi all,
This morning i woke up late.And really got a shock.Haha...But got to spend money again.Haiz.... coz i have to take cab down to my work place.I'm feeling much better.Coz the stone in my heart has finally put down even it really sad to noe that it hasn really leave me forever but i cant be selfish.Thanks to a person.Really thank you.

Towards him,i now treat him like a fren.Both of us feel better.But hope i did not give him any wrong idea.Me still stick with my decision.Haiz...I really don noe how to handle this.Very fan..Why cant just have it the way?Why I have to face all this?Very stress..I'm like putting on a mask infront of him.So jia lor~~Argh~!~!

This period of times,iI have a lots of ups and downs.Give up on him,betray by friend,disappointed in a person who change my life,children health oso ups n downs, financial problems....all this really hard for a girl at the age of 24,but from all these, I have become stronger n independent.Better or Bad??Leave it to you all to tell me..

Cheers,
Cindy :-)

Wedding rings...Purpose???

Today he asked me to ask my mom to redeem our wedding rings back.I asked him what is the purpose of getting back the rings when everything has changed.Wedding rings for me is very important.I told him before that these rings cant be pawn or lost.It is the thing that bind us together.But he still take the chance to remove from my hand.Have already put it back on his 27th b'day but within 3 days,he can actually ask me to remove again.At that time,i already dont see the rings as wat it use before.Now he get it back and he expect me to wear it back,how to???To me now, it is just a ring .The meaning of this pair of rings has gone.

LOVE to build bonding,but WORDS to destroy it

These few months is my most tedious times. A lots of things happened around me.The most dramatic one is my marriage life. When i was giving up hope on it,angels comes.It really touches my heart when this person offered the help to me.Because i never ever expect he will call me out and wanna to have a talk with me.

In these 7 years,I was alone in his family.At first i do not feel this way,it is when few certain things I really need help from his side but the person i asked rejected me.It is about 2 lives and well being of 2 kids at the age of 1 yr old and 2 yr old. Very hurt,disappointed and sad that time.I have no choice but to trouble my own family members.Whenever I need help, I cant get the help from them.From then on, I assumed that I do not belongs to his family

Whenever i ask him to join in any events my side organise,he will reject me and said bo liao,so troublesome,for wat etc..Until to an extend that i do not bother to ask him anymore coz i sure i will get rejection.Even we address our parents and siblings when we were having conversation,we were using ur dad,my dad,my mom,my sis,ur brother... Haiz...This is so..... :-(

In these 7 years,there are alots of things which make me now die heart towards him.Pronounce die,but this person who offered me his help still did not give up.Really appreciated.But please don't put too high hope.I do not wish to disappointed another person in my life.Already made lots of ppl sad,hurts, disappointed etc... coz of this problem,i really do not wish that i have disappoint u in any way.Thanks for the help..Wish you all the best.